I really want to continue my Christ posts that I wasn't able to finish last year. So I'll start a little early and see where I go with it. As I stated in my last post, if you have faith in Christ there is no room for fear. I'd like to end my year without fear, and with an increased amount of faith. We have changed the focus in our home and are trying each day to improve where we are. We are doing nightly scripture studying with scripture journals, not just reading (and hoping that they are paying attention). It has been a great experience so far and hope that it will continue. I'll take some pictures and post them of what I have made for them. 

Here is the picture that I thought of tonight due to some of the events for me today. 

Christ Healing Words

I don't know the artist to credit this picture to, sorry. 

I prayed especially hard this morning for all of my boys, including two that are not with us right now. I feel for all of them. We have been working very hard for Jimmy and Chris, there are some problems that we have been trying to overcome for them and on their behalf. Today I got one of the best calls I've had in a long time, well for the boys anyways. There is a program that is going to be able to help us, help them. I know that this is directly an answer to my prayers for them, it was not because I needed it but they DID! So when I look at this picture and see a mother wanting what is best for her son, and her Savior kneeling at her side caring, comforting and healing her little boy. I know that our Savior, my older brother, did this for my little boys today! I was able to share some of the things they will be able to help us with and the joy and PEACE that over came their faces said it all, and the healing began for one of them at that moment.

 Faith, putting it in HIS hands!

My thoughts tonight...

     I had to turn off Facebook (FB) and the Live Streaming about the Presidential Election between Mitt Romney and Barack Obama tonight because I got so frustrated on so may different levels. I did make a few comments on a few posts, but refrained from posting my own. I thought a lot about it, and really felt that I have something to say but didn't feel that FB was the place to do it and felt just as strongly that this would be the place for me to do so. Let me say why. 

     This was supposed to be MY place to record my comings and goings with my family and for my family, our family history, and a place that my children will be able to know their Mother in a way that they are unable to right now. I use to censor myself afraid that I would offend someone that was reading then posted that I wouldn't do so any longer. How can I be true to myself and my posterity and censor myself, well I can't. Also being someone that has lost both of her parents and wished that there were things I could ask them or know about them, that wasn't known before they were gone, I want my children to be able to have the ability to really know me and who I am and what I stand for. It is my responsibility and privilege to be true to myself, to my God and Savior, and to my family. I hope to always do so. Enough of that rambling!! The other reason that feel so strongly to express myself is that my boys have been very interested in this election and what it meant to them, so I want them to understand (at a latter date if not able to now) how and why I feel the way I do tonight. 

     I am disappointed in the results, that the struggles our country has gone through the past 4 years will continue for another 4 years and as many, fear may even be worse. Our family has defiantly been affected this past 4 years. I can't speak for others and wouldn't dream to be presumptuous to do so. I know that there are MANY that have suffered and know our pain and MUCH MORE. I want to only talk about some of my own family's experiences that we have gone through. We were affected by the change in Presidential Election 4 years ago when Oil Fields were closed down and many companies had to close their doors. Chad was working in the Fields at that time and found himself out of work and quickly out of options. Our lives were turned UP SIDE DOWN!! Without going into details, we were affected just like SO many in our country. We can possibly be affected GREATLY again by the outcome of tonight. I can say that it would be so easy to be angry, annoyed, enraged, exasperated, infuriated, irritated, and FEARFUL!! (OK we got the point already Tammy lol). But I am CHOOSING to NOT go down that path. I have been preparing for this outcome, and know God has a plan for us. He prepared this country for us, it is the promised land, but we also know that as the last days are approaching there is going to be much wicked and righteous upon this land. There is both on each side of the political world we all know it, as well as all around us. What I have to and choose to do is always remember: 

If you have FAITH in CHRIST there is NO room for FEAR. 

     

     So instead of being fearful for what may be, I choose to have faith in what might be! Not that I have faith in Obama or what he might do, or in his case be too lazy to do. I have faith in what God's plan is and what he has in store for me and my family and our country. I know that I have a lot of work and preparations to do. God has warned us and has had his Authorities warn and try to prepare us for what is to come. I take this as a in my face; am I ready, am I prepared? I will use this energy to draw nearer to my Savior and my God, to prepare myself and my family for the future and to draw nearer to each other. This is how I choose to go forward from tonight. 

 NO FEAR and PREPARE! 

GOD IS ULTIMATELY THE ONE IN CHARGE!!

Of all of it our Country's destiny as well as Mine.

 We all have our FREEDOM of Choice, this is my Choice!!

I'm back I hope...

I have missed blogging SO MUCH!! I was in the middle of a project that meant a GREAT deal to me, and then my computer crashed!! I had to go without a computer for a bit, that went into January. I'm not sure if I just got discouraged because I wasn't able to complete my project like I wanted and was inspired to do, or that life got REALLY crazy and busy!! On Dec 10, 2011 we had a foster placement and then another in January. Life got away from me as I was learning and growing in my new/added roll, as well as trying to work and all the other things we all do everyday. 

I have tried several times to come back to my blog and just haven't been able to for some reason, which is a shame because what it has meant to  me and where I was with it and where I had developed to. I haven't even been able to keep up with my friends blogs!?! I have given it a lot of thought and know that I need to return and continue on my journey. This was not for others as much as for me, my family, and for my boys as a journal of our lives together, for me to leave them something of myself including my testimony. I want them to know who their mother was personally someday, not just a mom and the day in and out of life. 

I am going to start where I left off with my dedication to my Savior, maybe done a little differently, our lives right now and then maybe a few random posts to cover our last year. It is important for me to journal it some for the boys. So if there is anyone left out there that remembers my blog...lol... and would like to catch up with our lives, here goes!! Thanks for coming back and hope it wont be so long for me to come back again!! :)